Decisions

24 Jan

(Twice in one day! Woo hoo I’m on a roll!)

I’m about to go to bed, but I was feeling the need for some warm drinks beforehand, and so I heated some water and chose Cinnamon Stick herbal tea. (Just bought it yesterday. I was in the Food Emporium down in Union Square after work — the line to get into Trader Joe’s was far too long to wait outside in 18 degree weather. They had a 2 for $5 sale on Bigelow boxes of tea, and despite my overstock of tea, I couldn’t resist another box…) The cinnamon isn’t too strong so its easy to drink, and I really need to warm up considering the window insulation in my apartment is awful (Side note: there is a breeze coming in my living room. The curtains move with the wind. Not even kidding).

So I’m currently sitting in my room, on my couch, feeling quite pleased with myself; I’m about to go to bed after drinking my tea, and my spring break plans have been decided — FINALLY.

For a few weeks, I have been deliberating over the location. The next trip on my list of places to travel is Vienna, Austria. Everyone always asks why, and I can’t give a straight answer. Lots of reasons! (Mostly because at my last internship I worked on a photo slideshow of Austria’s Lake Region. Despite said region being on the other side of the country from Vienna, and closer to Salzburg, I somehow got stuck on Vienna.) I planned everything out: flights, hostels, how much I would spend on food, etc, but for some reason was really hesitant to book. I am not afraid of traveling alone — I spent two months in London wandering alone a lot of the time. I found an apartment with an open room to sublet (“flatshare”) online, and met the two other occupants via Skype once before actually meeting them when I moved into my room. Alone doesn’t scare me. But for some reason, I just couldn’t bring myself to hit “BOOK NOW”. This frustrated and confused me to no end because I had gotten so excited over the idea of the trip.

But something didn’t seem right. 

Of course, it turns out that half the time I was deliberating whether I should just go back to London. Though, I didn’t want to go back to someplace I had already been.

But last semester I was so homesick for London despite having been there for only three months. I had a really hard time adjusting back to being in New York, and in school, when I returned. Slightly embarrassing true story: I couldn’t watch Downton Abbey for months when I got back because I’d get too upset (I wish that were made up).  And only recently did I start not missing it as much (and yes, now just as in love with Downton as everyone else).

Anyway, I was Facebook chatting one of the girls with whom I lived — it’s honestly the easiest way to stay in touch — and was laughing out loud. The amount of fun I have with her just through an internet connection made me miss her again, and brought me back to how much I miss living in that flat. It made me think of when L and A (those are their names for now) would brew a teapot of chai — sometimes after we’d come home from a bar, too– so I found the cinnamon tea, and made a cup for nostalgia reasons. Cinnamon is currently the closest thing I have to chai — I’m not sure what happened to my box (I bought a huge one from the Twinings shop and could not have consumed it all already….could I?).

And then, it just hit me that the reason I couldn’t hit BOOK NOW for Vienna, was because I really need to go back to the UK. I’d like to see them again. I may not mind being alone, but it would be nice to stay with friends. And maybe it would be good closure — the last trip before the “who-knows-when-I’ll-have-time-or-money-for-vacation-again” period of time in which I start working and paying back loans (groan).

So… I’m gonna pit stop in Scotland first!

I guess the point is, that sometimes sitting down and taking a breath, or drinking tea or whatever, and stepping back, makes you see a little clearer.

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5 Responses to “Decisions”

  1. deb 25/01/2013 at 4:19 am #

    Ah, yes. London does sound wonderful!

  2. kodorczyk 26/01/2013 at 6:05 am #

    i totally get the cold thing–theres literally wind in our apartment!
    But i know how you feel, split between going back to a place you KNOW you love and a place you really want to experience. Way to compromise!

  3. Emily 06/02/2013 at 11:49 pm #

    I love Downton! Austria is absolutely wonderful, as is Germany, as is Switzerland. I country-hopped a few years ago and it was the most fun (and food) I’ve ever had.

    • hschaffer 07/02/2013 at 12:10 am #

      That’s awesome! When did you country hop? And where in Austria did you go?

      • Emily 07/02/2013 at 12:13 am #

        It was back in about 2008, I flew into Zurich, I was staying in Konstanz, and we crossed the border over into Austria, but I’m not sure where we were, I was only with one English speaker

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